Sigh. I am kinda scared

What am I scared of. Just not being all that I can be or that all I can be will be enough. I want it to be enough. I have had too many jobs in the last two years that didn’t work out because my best at that time wasn’t good enough.

I have been battling a major case of the self doubts lately. Doubts about how I look, how I am aging. Doubts about my life and the direction it is taking in my work. Doubts about my interactions with others.

I met a couple of guys in the area, finally. They seem nice, but who are they really. What do they really want. What will they tell me they need. Will it be more than the bounce in bed that I want on a regular basis?

Sigh I got to get out more, the cabin fever is getting to me.



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